Moving is hard. Period.
I know; I have done it a lot. Moving from city to
city, where you have to pick up and leave your friends and your life, as you
know it is just plain hard. BUT it’s a new adventure with new experiences,
people and places. I have made wonderful friends because of our moves, truly
the best!! I have amazing friends all over the world now, which I would not
have if we had not moved like we have. And for that I am thankful!
I'm going to be honest and bear my soul here;
moving is never easy. Sometimes it’s easier than others, but there is always
transition. But this move has been hard. Not the actual move itself, but the
transition. We have been here 6 months and I am struggling. Yes, I know, it
takes 2 years, or so I have been told countless times, but there have been
times we have not even been somewhere for 2 years. I don't want to wait 2
years. I can't spend 2 years struggling to fit in, to make friends, to feel
comfortable.
As the kids get older, yes they are in more
activities, but that just means it’s busier. I run more and wait in more car
lines. There is no walking your child into school so you can meet the other
moms. No playgroups, where you are all going through the same things. No mommy
and me classes or preschool swim time, etc. You are thrown out there on your
own to make your own way when they kids are older. So yes, the kids are all
involved, but the parents are not involved. Which just means my kids are doing
much better than me. Do they have a best friend yet, no, not really? They
do however have friends and feel comfortable in their environments. I'm
grateful for that. I don't want them to struggle.
It’s hard for me to be the mom, wife and person I
want to be when I am struggling inside though. Sometimes the tears come out of
nowhere; when I am home alone cleaning and they are all at school, or I am in
the car. But I feel like I can't struggle. I have to be the rock. So it’s a
battle sometimes, an inner battle.
Will it work itself out? Yes, it will. It takes
time. I know that, I do!! But does that mean its not hard...nope! It’s hard.
It's really hard at times. But thank goodness I have all those awesome friends
from all those other moves that I can count on; that I can share with, and cry
with, and be happy with!
